Keep going…

I had to be away from here some time... I was mentally exhausted... it was his birthday, then mine, and life keep going without stopping and I just needed a minute to stop... Sometimes we just need to stop and have a couple of deep breaths to find ourselves again... Some days are harder than others... but I need to keep going... I need to make him proud of me and live for both of us! One day at a time right?

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