The widow diary

It is your birthday... he would be 38... forever 33... I hope you like the roses... I couldn't find sunglowers, I guess is not their season yet... I miss you so much... This morning I was thinking on your last birthday alive... I cooked your favourite food and got you a chocolate cake! I still look at the video of us singing happy birthday to you, sometimes... Is a way to remember your smile and voice... Oh meu amor... Why? I miss you so much... If I could have just one wish was to have you back, even if just for 5 minutes, so we could hug and kiss again and know why... I wish I could go back in time... be a time lord like Dr Who and manage to convince you that you were doing the biggest mistake of your live in that day... I love you... Happy birthday meu amor! Amo-te...

Easter is a time of renewal and new beginnings. Let us embrace this season to transform the negatives in our lives into positives — to turn grief, anger, and pain into hope for brighter days ahead. And may we use it to guide others gently toward the light of hope, even in their darkest moments.

"Don't you know? [...] Don't any of you know? That it's you. Not what you can give, or do, or provide. Just you." (A breath of snow and ashes, Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon. I wish he knew... but I guess when you are struggling with your mental helth you don't know... he didn't knew... I wish he had...